I wanted to find the words to say all these beautiful things in my head,

to match up to all the pretty pictures I saw with my eyes. 

I wanted to be able to put words to the way my stomach tightened whenever I caught your eye and you smiled, 

to the way I can’t sleep at night because I know I won’t dream of you. 

I wanted to be able to put words to the way I want to occupy your thoughts,

to the way I want to casually cross your mind and become a smile on your lips. 

I want to find the words to say that though I’ve felt this way a billion times before, nothing makes me happier than this feeling. 

I want to find the words to say hello, I am here, look at me, think of me, want me, need me, love me. 

I want to find the words to say hello, I am here, look at me, I think of you, I want you, I need you, I love you. 

But since I can’t, I’ll keep imagining the words I use in place of the ones I can’t say.